Well, my beeeeautiful chart did not end in a BFP. I had a lot of BFM's (big fat maybe's) though, especially on the FRER's that did turn up a more clear and visible line after they dried. I'll never know if it was another early chemical or not and I would like to think it wasn't.
However, I was already scheduled to start my first injectable cycle and began injects with Follistim on CD5, 150 IU, then tapering to 100IU and 75 IU until CD10. The BIG freakin problemo is that I had an HSG on Tuesday and this has thrown my life into chaos because the results were questionable.
The ONLY reason I was having the HSG, as ordered by my OB, was to check if my tubes were open and clear. I wanted to know that was true before doing injects and I also wanted the therapeutic benefit of an HSG (cleaning the pipes for greater fertility). I wasn't worried about my uterus at all since after my last D & C for retained placenta, I have had a hysteroscopy that was clear, several ultrasounds measuring a good, thick lining around ovulation, and a sonohystogram that was clear just 8 or so weeks ago by my new RE. Unfortunately, during the HSG the radialogist had some concerns about irregular filling patterns on the right of my uterus and on the left top of the uterus near the tube. He said it might indicate adhesions. I had the report faxed to my RE's office and the nurse told me to go ahead and continue the injects as planned. I was happy and figured the findings must not be tooooo terribly worrisome. Still, I knew I would follow up.
Well, I started the Follistim and it was easier than I could have imagined. I don't even feel the needle it's soooo thin. I've been pleased as punch about this and wondering why the heck I didn't do this before.
But yesterday morning the OB called and wanted to consult with me about doing surgery this cycle. He thinks these potential adhesions could be causing my losses and says I shouldn't get pregnant now. Of course, that means I could have Asherman's...which is completely terrifying to me.
So, I've been in a tailspin about what to do. How did I have a clear uterus before? How was this not seen on previous tests including the hysteroscopy!? I know HSG's give false positives and negatives 15-20% of the time. Could that be the case? How serious is it if there's something wrong? It is serious enough to lose the $500 on the Follistim (that can't be used in another cycle because it's already been opened)? Serious enough to risk more surgery that could cause worse scarring??? I just don't have the answers.
So, DH and I are baffled. I called my mom, an OBGYN nurse, and she said she would continue with the injections. I did my third injection last night, but am just not sure if I'll continue. At some level, I feel like I have nothing left to lose on this cycle and if it doesn't work, I'm out the meds, just as I would be by stopping them.
The only thought I had was to get a second opinion, preferably from an expert. I just don't know who that might be though. I wish I had done this HSG a long time ago, or just waited until after this cycle so I wouldn't have to second guess everything now.
Why can't I evar catch a break? Seriously. This is total poop.
However, I was already scheduled to start my first injectable cycle and began injects with Follistim on CD5, 150 IU, then tapering to 100IU and 75 IU until CD10. The BIG freakin problemo is that I had an HSG on Tuesday and this has thrown my life into chaos because the results were questionable.
The ONLY reason I was having the HSG, as ordered by my OB, was to check if my tubes were open and clear. I wanted to know that was true before doing injects and I also wanted the therapeutic benefit of an HSG (cleaning the pipes for greater fertility). I wasn't worried about my uterus at all since after my last D & C for retained placenta, I have had a hysteroscopy that was clear, several ultrasounds measuring a good, thick lining around ovulation, and a sonohystogram that was clear just 8 or so weeks ago by my new RE. Unfortunately, during the HSG the radialogist had some concerns about irregular filling patterns on the right of my uterus and on the left top of the uterus near the tube. He said it might indicate adhesions. I had the report faxed to my RE's office and the nurse told me to go ahead and continue the injects as planned. I was happy and figured the findings must not be tooooo terribly worrisome. Still, I knew I would follow up.
Well, I started the Follistim and it was easier than I could have imagined. I don't even feel the needle it's soooo thin. I've been pleased as punch about this and wondering why the heck I didn't do this before.
But yesterday morning the OB called and wanted to consult with me about doing surgery this cycle. He thinks these potential adhesions could be causing my losses and says I shouldn't get pregnant now. Of course, that means I could have Asherman's...which is completely terrifying to me.
So, I've been in a tailspin about what to do. How did I have a clear uterus before? How was this not seen on previous tests including the hysteroscopy!? I know HSG's give false positives and negatives 15-20% of the time. Could that be the case? How serious is it if there's something wrong? It is serious enough to lose the $500 on the Follistim (that can't be used in another cycle because it's already been opened)? Serious enough to risk more surgery that could cause worse scarring??? I just don't have the answers.
So, DH and I are baffled. I called my mom, an OBGYN nurse, and she said she would continue with the injections. I did my third injection last night, but am just not sure if I'll continue. At some level, I feel like I have nothing left to lose on this cycle and if it doesn't work, I'm out the meds, just as I would be by stopping them.
The only thought I had was to get a second opinion, preferably from an expert. I just don't know who that might be though. I wish I had done this HSG a long time ago, or just waited until after this cycle so I wouldn't have to second guess everything now.
Why can't I evar catch a break? Seriously. This is total poop.
